I guess I will never really know just how much a deployment changes things.
Before Joe's deployment, a separation was just a separation. 30 days in the field. 3 months in Fort Leonard Wood. Hell, the 6 months we were apart after we got married and Joe had to go back to Germany. Just time apart. It sucked, but it was easy.
And now, after a year long deployment, time apart isn't easy. At least not for me. Joe has to go to ALC in Fort Leonard Wood for two months. Watching him pack brings back horrible memories. Saying good bye brought me right back to March 2010.
I'm giving myself good pep talks - 60 days is NOTHING! Really, after 365, it's a walk in the park. And here I am feeling so bad for myself when some of you are in the deployment for the long haul. I was always one of those people that would roll my eyes at the wife that couldn't be apart from her husband for 2 weeks. How could they be so dependent on one another? How could you not sleep when he's gone? At least this has hit me now, and not during the deployment.
The deployment definitely shown us just how much we need each other though. I'm going to take this as a good thing and run with it. Maybe it's not such a bad thing I love my husband so much I want to be around him all the time, right?
But for now, I'm going to dig out my "living alone" perk list and eat spaghetti every night and not have to watch Swamp People marathons.
And for those of you reading this who are rolling your eyes at me, wishing your husbands could be only 850 miles away with a cell phone, I truly to apologize. My heart goes out to you. It's not easy. What we do isn't normal. I hope your husbands come home soon, safe.