Showing posts with label alone. Show all posts
Showing posts with label alone. Show all posts

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

Cry baby

I have to remind myself that I'm actually 27 years old. My parents came to visit over this weekend. Drove 14 hours from Arkansas. They arrived Wednesday and left today. And I'm teary eyed. Alone again. And it sucks. Now I have to get back to my school work and wait another couple of weeks for Joe to get home.

We had such a good time though! We did the tourist thing in Denver and saw some things we'd never been to before. We cooked A LOT! Yum!! We went shopping and experienced a crowd at the commissary on post. Mom and I went clothes shopping and had a blast. And of course spent lots of time with Rigel, loving on him. Rigel is known as the grand puppy and he loves his Grandma Jo.

And it reminded me how much I miss home. I have no doubt in my mind that we are doing the right thing by getting out of the Army and moving home. I cant wait!! I could be moving home at this time next year!! YAY!!

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Marital Status: Married yet alone.

I'm sitting in my house trying to decide it I want to go see a movie alone. I'm married. I've been married for 4 years. And I'm still alone. This military training junk sucks. Even when they are "home" (read: not deployed) they arent really home.

So do I go alone? I really want to see The Help. Really really really badly. I have about 20 minutes to decide it I'm going to go or not. I really hope I have the strength to go alone. So I'm going to post this so at least my silly blog can hold me accountable for being a strong independent woman.

Hey, wasnt that a deployment goal...?


Sunday, August 7, 2011

Back to your normal.....?

I was slightly put off by something my mother said, until I actually thought about it. With Joe gone again, she asked me if I found my normal again yet, my old routine. I don't want Joe being gone to by my "normal." But yeah... it is. Sadly.

We were here together for two months before Joe deployed. A year by myself. Joe home for five months. Gone for another two. So as far as Colorado is concerned, "alone Sara" is the normal Sara. Of course I was dumb enough to bring this conversation up to Joe. And of course that upset both of us. Even when he's gone, he doesn't feel gone. He's very good about texting and calling (and Skyping while in Iraq). We talk constantly. I miss him like nuts. But we still try to have a marriage while he's gone.

If he has more training, like JRTC, and then deploys again, I swear I will flip out. Another deployment doesnt look possible at this point, but you never know with the Army, right?

Although, I did read something about 9 month deployments and 24 month dwell times. Wouldn't that be awesome!! But like my mother said, with the state of the economy at the moment, the department of defense might not have the funds to participate in any "wars" after too much longer. Stupid government.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

3.6.5

It is all about attitude and perspective. As I was going to sleep last night it dawned on me that I would be falling asleep alone for 365 days. I would be waking up alone for 365 days. And it seemed like such a l.o.n.g time!!

But according to my lovely husband, "it's only 365 days!" He says it doesnt really seem that long in his head. And as he says, it's only 365 for one night. then it's 364 and then 363.


So here's to a good attitude and a healthy perspective during this deployment.